An Old Friend

I was utterly surprised and nervous to receive an AIM message today from an old friend of mine. It took me 2 1/2 year to actually come to peace and term with it but now that we finally made contact, I surprised myself of how we reacted.

7 years is a long time. Think about it, that is nearly 2555 days, 61320 hours, 3,679,200 mins since we last talked. 7 is also a lucky number according to many superstitious people. 7 - you can think about the the 7 virtuals.

I think more than ever how people have changed through the course of life. How for some, one experience can shape the rest of thier lives, while others stumbled, tried, failed through numerous trails, but finally get there. I can only say on my behalf, although I am confident for the both, that we made some errors along the way, but I think somehow, we managed to come around the corner. Certainly, 7 years is ample time for any one person or people to go through significant changes in his or her life.

For us, it has been that way and I think many of you would agree that as well discovering oneself and facing our darkest deamons takes time and courage. This could be something you're not good at, shy or fearful of confronting, but for me I simply rather not know. I would be the first to admit that I eschew from it as much as possible. You have to actively wanted to reslove it, if you'll ever going to grow as a person.

For 7 years, I chose the approach of locking it away and for the most part it has worked. But you know, it just never goes away. Kind of reminded me the film "What lies beneath".

Today, I am grateful that we decided to talk again. You learn a very valuable lession in life, that is FORGIVENESS. I see to many people hold things in their live for other people's wrong doing. Something that wrong doing could be situational or inexperience or simple a mistake. To condemn such act would only leave your life at a holding point, let alone torn by the curious mind or questioning your actions. What could you have done and what couldn't. Believe me when I say, you will never fully understand why or how it happened. Of course, I am not talking about people with nefarious intentions. For those types of intentions, I wouldn't even waste a breathe. But for others, if I could clearly put it, mistakes happen in life because we want to discover things this world out for ourself. Even we are told not to do it, we still do it because they are of our own conception, perceptions. Through our very one eyes and ears are a compilation of events, experiences that is blueprint of your life.

So after 7 years, I think we both realized and understand that our story and should I say any story out here is a YIN and YANG. One usually cause the other to happen and thus, there is not need to bury these questions. It will only propogate further and you will soon just miss the enjoyment of life. Instead, as time is the most valueable cure for pain, understand your mistakes and try to make new bridges the "time out around".

I urge many of you to just simple confront your issues and your problems. Solved them and free yourself form the burden of carry them around, like myself of 7 years. In the end, if you are good and have no ill-will intentions, you will be rewarded.

I do wish the best for this old friend and hope for pure happiness.

Life has a way to solving out itself.

Thank you OLD Friend.