Sunday, December 10, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
The ONE
Since the title of my blog is about love, life and longing, I thought it would be nice to start to crack in a few thoughts about love thought it is safe to say, nothing can be resolved about love once you have read this blog.
Because love is such a sophiscated matter, knowing no one's opinion would ever satisfied other, it would foolish of me to talk about the definition of love because it cannot be applied to anyone but myslef. So after careful consideration, I thought it would be easier for me to talk about conquest of finding love rather trying to convince you about love. Who am I too tell you right?
So when it come to love what do people look for in his or her mate?
To answer this question, it is critically to look at those around you, after all we often surround around ourselves of people that make up little components of our complex life. For me, I am grateful to be surrounded by the greatest female. Great not neccessary in monitary or accomplishment along, but in smart, intelligent, loyal, clever, attractiveness and the best of them all, great heart. Striking isn't it, to be surrounded of all these so call perfect women yet, how do you determine which one is right one for you?
For everyone that think that may have the answer, don't fool yourself. The fact of the matter is it really doesn't matter in this context because your answer would be just as jusifiable as mine, so then how do you pick that right one that you can call, THE ONE. You can't because the ONE can only exist only in a single point in time, meaning that moment when you have decided that your heart and mind are in sync and THE ONE enscapulates that very moment that you felt the stars were aline in perfect formation for you and her/him. But that that mean THE ONE would be the THE ONE for the rest of your life. So how do you come to this conclusion that that person is THE ONE FOR YOU FOR EVER.
As I mentioned early, all real women and real men have the similar quailities. LOYAL, UNDERSTANDING, LOVING, CARING, RESPONSIBLE, TRUSTWORTHY, you know what I mean, so if all real women and men have these communal charateristics, what then makes person stand out that you would be so convinced to call the ONE FORVER.
Hmm..think about it, all real women and men look for these characteristics, it is a given, but then, what makes a woman and man decide to spend the rest of his and her life together. Maybe, if you are thinking something like an epitome, you are completely fooling yourself. No, it is not any extrordinary discoveries nor is it someone that can't be explainible, but it is so simple that you would think I won't make any sense.
The real question is , what makes this person so special? Is it because her/she can make you laugh in the darkest hours? Or is because he/she so passion about one thing that make him/her so special in your eye? Or is because he/she simply would be with you regardless of what you will become or not become? Or maybe you and him/her share something in this world that so sacred, so unique that it can re-live with you over and over again? Or for me, it simple being able to share the passion for my beloved country and know that person can see that. Maybe, all these things about caring, responsiblity, understanding is part of love, but it not what love is about. But love exist in burst, yes in BURST, however extending over a long long period of time, rejunivate your life as each BURST OF LOVE is felt. For exampke, when you have those moment when the world is moving so fast, so twisted, so light speed, then you stop and pause and think about that one person. For that very single moment of lonilness, emptiness and silence and everything is a blurred, you feel complete in all phases of a human being can exist. You smile, pleaseantly content, perhaps with a grin of completion about love and that person you love. These are the moments of BURST that I mean. So is it neccessarily true that love must be a constant stream of "I LOVE YOU" or a huge "ROCK", in my opinion NO. However, it must be of loyalty and your own conviction of "COMPLETION".
I guess the bottom line is, if you can expereince this moment at any time of your life or any phase of your life and any where in this world, maybe that is THE ONE for you.
It is simple, true and defeats all the complications of life, but getting there... getting to that...well, that is another story.
Because love is such a sophiscated matter, knowing no one's opinion would ever satisfied other, it would foolish of me to talk about the definition of love because it cannot be applied to anyone but myslef. So after careful consideration, I thought it would be easier for me to talk about conquest of finding love rather trying to convince you about love. Who am I too tell you right?
So when it come to love what do people look for in his or her mate?
To answer this question, it is critically to look at those around you, after all we often surround around ourselves of people that make up little components of our complex life. For me, I am grateful to be surrounded by the greatest female. Great not neccessary in monitary or accomplishment along, but in smart, intelligent, loyal, clever, attractiveness and the best of them all, great heart. Striking isn't it, to be surrounded of all these so call perfect women yet, how do you determine which one is right one for you?
For everyone that think that may have the answer, don't fool yourself. The fact of the matter is it really doesn't matter in this context because your answer would be just as jusifiable as mine, so then how do you pick that right one that you can call, THE ONE. You can't because the ONE can only exist only in a single point in time, meaning that moment when you have decided that your heart and mind are in sync and THE ONE enscapulates that very moment that you felt the stars were aline in perfect formation for you and her/him. But that that mean THE ONE would be the THE ONE for the rest of your life. So how do you come to this conclusion that that person is THE ONE FOR YOU FOR EVER.
As I mentioned early, all real women and real men have the similar quailities. LOYAL, UNDERSTANDING, LOVING, CARING, RESPONSIBLE, TRUSTWORTHY, you know what I mean, so if all real women and men have these communal charateristics, what then makes person stand out that you would be so convinced to call the ONE FORVER.
Hmm..think about it, all real women and men look for these characteristics, it is a given, but then, what makes a woman and man decide to spend the rest of his and her life together. Maybe, if you are thinking something like an epitome, you are completely fooling yourself. No, it is not any extrordinary discoveries nor is it someone that can't be explainible, but it is so simple that you would think I won't make any sense.
The real question is , what makes this person so special? Is it because her/she can make you laugh in the darkest hours? Or is because he/she so passion about one thing that make him/her so special in your eye? Or is because he/she simply would be with you regardless of what you will become or not become? Or maybe you and him/her share something in this world that so sacred, so unique that it can re-live with you over and over again? Or for me, it simple being able to share the passion for my beloved country and know that person can see that. Maybe, all these things about caring, responsiblity, understanding is part of love, but it not what love is about. But love exist in burst, yes in BURST, however extending over a long long period of time, rejunivate your life as each BURST OF LOVE is felt. For exampke, when you have those moment when the world is moving so fast, so twisted, so light speed, then you stop and pause and think about that one person. For that very single moment of lonilness, emptiness and silence and everything is a blurred, you feel complete in all phases of a human being can exist. You smile, pleaseantly content, perhaps with a grin of completion about love and that person you love. These are the moments of BURST that I mean. So is it neccessarily true that love must be a constant stream of "I LOVE YOU" or a huge "ROCK", in my opinion NO. However, it must be of loyalty and your own conviction of "COMPLETION".
I guess the bottom line is, if you can expereince this moment at any time of your life or any phase of your life and any where in this world, maybe that is THE ONE for you.
It is simple, true and defeats all the complications of life, but getting there... getting to that...well, that is another story.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Who are you?
As I look back, I have a deep love and understanding for all your hardships. You are so beautiful and blessed in ways that are indescribable that only your age could display your features. For some reason, I have a deep love that is warm and protective of you. Although you have pushed me away; away from all the things that I am about, but I know that your reasons were legitimate. Last month, I came to visit you and that was when I finally had a chance to see you for the first time. How you have lived in my mind, you again, made me realize the truth about you. Although there were many things I didn't expect, but even with those, I am not ashamed of what you have become but feel more intensified as I ached to come to the realization of those that have robbed you of your innocent.
I simply cannot put into words and paint you a photo that could captured the pain and suffering that you have witnessed. You become, overnight, a place for resting of millions while at the same time, you are slowly draining your sources. Those who have put you through this eventually will succumb to you and only then will you have the last words. But I know you and your naturalness to take even those that you scared you and that is why, I love you more than anything and you will be forever in my heart.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
A day especially made for Mothers
To this day, I don't know how this particular day called "Mother's Day" came about. I guess it really doesn't matter because today or tomorrow should be a mother day.
Many of those the know me have a very odd view of me and how I preceive women. I think for the most part it has been my fault for not actually being up front about it. But the bottom line is, a woman, whether that is a mother, a girlfriend or a peer that is female, never seem to stop to amaze me. And I tell you why.
I can only speak from my experiences. Unfortunately, I have certain rules about speaking of people in blogs and therefore, I won't name any particular name or refer to any particular person. So I will will be general and give an overall opinion about women that have been in and out of my life, in hope that those who read can get a better glimpse into my world without women.
The issue of women has been if not the most controversial subject of human kind. It is so happen that Dan Brown's book "Da Vinci Code" was an attempt to unveil the true about catholisim by legitimitzing the holy grail as a direct blood line of Jesus Christ. Which is to say that the holy grail is not any mettalic object ("cup") that Jesus had during the last supper, but holy grail is a woman, Mary Magdalene. If this is not strike the most controversial subject that human kind has faced, I wouldn't know what would be. But let me take from another perspective, perhaps from one that is not so controversial, but simple, that is what is so precious that about being a woman.
Even for Mary Magdalene, the issue of her the carrying blood line of Jesus is what this whole world is fighting over, but besides from that, most will agree that she truly dedicated servant of God. Her complete care, passion, dedication and loyalty to him are an innate chracteristics of a woman. From that perspective, that my friend is gift of a woman. If you don't believe me on this particular subject, that is understand because religion is complex and driven, so I will not to offend anyone (sorry if i did) but let me bring to light my point from another example or perhaps, events that are more tangible to you and I.
I think many of us in our lifetime has experience one form or another of WAR. For me particularly, my expereince has been Vietnam War, though never actually in frontline, but I have grown to see the effect of women in war.
If you are Vietnamese reading this, you will identify exactly what I am talking about. Oh.. how many tragic stories of men being away from months and years, leaving his wife at home to carry out the most important task anyone can take. I don't get it today, when I talk about this with women, they feel that I have put them down. The fact of matter is, men and women are physically build differently, thus we are in a way, have no choice to physical challenges. It's not something "heroic" or "prideful" about carrying an 80 pounds backpack with a rifle running around in a jungle only to know that that eventually you or your enemy will die. Further more, I belive people glamorize to this much. Haven't anyone though about this, that if world would be so much better if we didn't have a Hilter or a Stalin or a Ho Chi Minh or the Khmer Rouge or a Mao. No body wants this and particular not "single" man would want to put himself in that situation. Maybe there are truly axis of evil out there, but for most ordinary human being, I don't think they would like this.
So, therefore, during this time when men are away, the women has complete control of all destinies, from kids to husband. She hold the key to everyone's life. She is strong, faithful, determined, yet soft, loving and caring. I am sure there are men out there can do that, like great fathers, but that is simple god's gift to a woman.
Well, I probably could come up with couple more examples, but why. You get the point. Women is the backbone to everything. Yes, guys, they are, we are just the arms and flesh, but they are the structure and foundation. That is why I believe one cannot work without the other. If only most girls and guys out there to find a balance and understand each other strenghts and weaknesses, how healthy this world would be.
With that, I wish everyone a happy mothers day, the powerful ladies of our lives.
Many of those the know me have a very odd view of me and how I preceive women. I think for the most part it has been my fault for not actually being up front about it. But the bottom line is, a woman, whether that is a mother, a girlfriend or a peer that is female, never seem to stop to amaze me. And I tell you why.
I can only speak from my experiences. Unfortunately, I have certain rules about speaking of people in blogs and therefore, I won't name any particular name or refer to any particular person. So I will will be general and give an overall opinion about women that have been in and out of my life, in hope that those who read can get a better glimpse into my world without women.
The issue of women has been if not the most controversial subject of human kind. It is so happen that Dan Brown's book "Da Vinci Code" was an attempt to unveil the true about catholisim by legitimitzing the holy grail as a direct blood line of Jesus Christ. Which is to say that the holy grail is not any mettalic object ("cup") that Jesus had during the last supper, but holy grail is a woman, Mary Magdalene. If this is not strike the most controversial subject that human kind has faced, I wouldn't know what would be. But let me take from another perspective, perhaps from one that is not so controversial, but simple, that is what is so precious that about being a woman.
Even for Mary Magdalene, the issue of her the carrying blood line of Jesus is what this whole world is fighting over, but besides from that, most will agree that she truly dedicated servant of God. Her complete care, passion, dedication and loyalty to him are an innate chracteristics of a woman. From that perspective, that my friend is gift of a woman. If you don't believe me on this particular subject, that is understand because religion is complex and driven, so I will not to offend anyone (sorry if i did) but let me bring to light my point from another example or perhaps, events that are more tangible to you and I.
I think many of us in our lifetime has experience one form or another of WAR. For me particularly, my expereince has been Vietnam War, though never actually in frontline, but I have grown to see the effect of women in war.
If you are Vietnamese reading this, you will identify exactly what I am talking about. Oh.. how many tragic stories of men being away from months and years, leaving his wife at home to carry out the most important task anyone can take. I don't get it today, when I talk about this with women, they feel that I have put them down. The fact of matter is, men and women are physically build differently, thus we are in a way, have no choice to physical challenges. It's not something "heroic" or "prideful" about carrying an 80 pounds backpack with a rifle running around in a jungle only to know that that eventually you or your enemy will die. Further more, I belive people glamorize to this much. Haven't anyone though about this, that if world would be so much better if we didn't have a Hilter or a Stalin or a Ho Chi Minh or the Khmer Rouge or a Mao. No body wants this and particular not "single" man would want to put himself in that situation. Maybe there are truly axis of evil out there, but for most ordinary human being, I don't think they would like this.
So, therefore, during this time when men are away, the women has complete control of all destinies, from kids to husband. She hold the key to everyone's life. She is strong, faithful, determined, yet soft, loving and caring. I am sure there are men out there can do that, like great fathers, but that is simple god's gift to a woman.
Well, I probably could come up with couple more examples, but why. You get the point. Women is the backbone to everything. Yes, guys, they are, we are just the arms and flesh, but they are the structure and foundation. That is why I believe one cannot work without the other. If only most girls and guys out there to find a balance and understand each other strenghts and weaknesses, how healthy this world would be.
With that, I wish everyone a happy mothers day, the powerful ladies of our lives.
Friday, May 12, 2006
An Old Friend
I was utterly surprised and nervous to receive an AIM message today from an old friend of mine. It took me 2 1/2 year to actually come to peace and term with it but now that we finally made contact, I surprised myself of how we reacted.
7 years is a long time. Think about it, that is nearly 2555 days, 61320 hours, 3,679,200 mins since we last talked. 7 is also a lucky number according to many superstitious people. 7 - you can think about the the 7 virtuals.
I think more than ever how people have changed through the course of life. How for some, one experience can shape the rest of thier lives, while others stumbled, tried, failed through numerous trails, but finally get there. I can only say on my behalf, although I am confident for the both, that we made some errors along the way, but I think somehow, we managed to come around the corner. Certainly, 7 years is ample time for any one person or people to go through significant changes in his or her life.
For us, it has been that way and I think many of you would agree that as well discovering oneself and facing our darkest deamons takes time and courage. This could be something you're not good at, shy or fearful of confronting, but for me I simply rather not know. I would be the first to admit that I eschew from it as much as possible. You have to actively wanted to reslove it, if you'll ever going to grow as a person.
For 7 years, I chose the approach of locking it away and for the most part it has worked. But you know, it just never goes away. Kind of reminded me the film "What lies beneath".
Today, I am grateful that we decided to talk again. You learn a very valuable lession in life, that is FORGIVENESS. I see to many people hold things in their live for other people's wrong doing. Something that wrong doing could be situational or inexperience or simple a mistake. To condemn such act would only leave your life at a holding point, let alone torn by the curious mind or questioning your actions. What could you have done and what couldn't. Believe me when I say, you will never fully understand why or how it happened. Of course, I am not talking about people with nefarious intentions. For those types of intentions, I wouldn't even waste a breathe. But for others, if I could clearly put it, mistakes happen in life because we want to discover things this world out for ourself. Even we are told not to do it, we still do it because they are of our own conception, perceptions. Through our very one eyes and ears are a compilation of events, experiences that is blueprint of your life.
So after 7 years, I think we both realized and understand that our story and should I say any story out here is a YIN and YANG. One usually cause the other to happen and thus, there is not need to bury these questions. It will only propogate further and you will soon just miss the enjoyment of life. Instead, as time is the most valueable cure for pain, understand your mistakes and try to make new bridges the "time out around".
I urge many of you to just simple confront your issues and your problems. Solved them and free yourself form the burden of carry them around, like myself of 7 years. In the end, if you are good and have no ill-will intentions, you will be rewarded.
I do wish the best for this old friend and hope for pure happiness.
Life has a way to solving out itself.
Thank you OLD Friend.
7 years is a long time. Think about it, that is nearly 2555 days, 61320 hours, 3,679,200 mins since we last talked. 7 is also a lucky number according to many superstitious people. 7 - you can think about the the 7 virtuals.
I think more than ever how people have changed through the course of life. How for some, one experience can shape the rest of thier lives, while others stumbled, tried, failed through numerous trails, but finally get there. I can only say on my behalf, although I am confident for the both, that we made some errors along the way, but I think somehow, we managed to come around the corner. Certainly, 7 years is ample time for any one person or people to go through significant changes in his or her life.
For us, it has been that way and I think many of you would agree that as well discovering oneself and facing our darkest deamons takes time and courage. This could be something you're not good at, shy or fearful of confronting, but for me I simply rather not know. I would be the first to admit that I eschew from it as much as possible. You have to actively wanted to reslove it, if you'll ever going to grow as a person.
For 7 years, I chose the approach of locking it away and for the most part it has worked. But you know, it just never goes away. Kind of reminded me the film "What lies beneath".
Today, I am grateful that we decided to talk again. You learn a very valuable lession in life, that is FORGIVENESS. I see to many people hold things in their live for other people's wrong doing. Something that wrong doing could be situational or inexperience or simple a mistake. To condemn such act would only leave your life at a holding point, let alone torn by the curious mind or questioning your actions. What could you have done and what couldn't. Believe me when I say, you will never fully understand why or how it happened. Of course, I am not talking about people with nefarious intentions. For those types of intentions, I wouldn't even waste a breathe. But for others, if I could clearly put it, mistakes happen in life because we want to discover things this world out for ourself. Even we are told not to do it, we still do it because they are of our own conception, perceptions. Through our very one eyes and ears are a compilation of events, experiences that is blueprint of your life.
So after 7 years, I think we both realized and understand that our story and should I say any story out here is a YIN and YANG. One usually cause the other to happen and thus, there is not need to bury these questions. It will only propogate further and you will soon just miss the enjoyment of life. Instead, as time is the most valueable cure for pain, understand your mistakes and try to make new bridges the "time out around".
I urge many of you to just simple confront your issues and your problems. Solved them and free yourself form the burden of carry them around, like myself of 7 years. In the end, if you are good and have no ill-will intentions, you will be rewarded.
I do wish the best for this old friend and hope for pure happiness.
Life has a way to solving out itself.
Thank you OLD Friend.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
My First Blog
I can't believe how late in the game I am, but better late then never. This would be my first official blog and I must say, don't know know if I have the time everyday to get on this website to write a little piece or two about my day or my thoughts. Nevertheless, I will try.
Today, for me is a special day. I didn't even realize it after posting my blog that today is April 30, 2006. You may ask why today is special to me? I shouldn't say it is special to me only but it special day for all Vietnamese people. Oh what Vietnamese can forget about April 30,1975. While few by nearly all Vietnamese oversea as a the darkest day in Vietnamese history, other view as victorious.
This is day will forever mark a stripe in every Vietnamese lives, love it, hate it, ignore or aware of it, on April 30. 1975 Vietnam fell into a communist regime and caused the biggest exodus across sea by any one country. This exodus or known as "VUOT BIEN" is why I am here today and why 83 millions at still in Vietnam.
Today, hundreds of Vietnamese communties across the world is commemorate this day as millions lives were lost and the country fell into a darkness of communism. While we morn, the Vietnamese government is preparing for a Fouth of July in Vietnam as every corner, every bulding is decked out with lights and the country will put on an elobrate show for everyone to see. Yes, this day, is a big division and seperation of two generations and of family. Although it has nearly been over 30 years, the wounds are still fresh within my families and with many youth activist as myself.
Although I never experience the wrath of the Vietnam world nor would I could have changed anything even if I did, April 30 still brings back for me those many nights when my parents would tell me stories about how lives and families were ripped apart and how today, they did everything that they could to secure us our future. For that, April 30 for me is not about the anger or the pain that was left behind, but more like what can we do today as Youth to secure the future of all of those that are currently living in Vietnam today withour the rights of seek for there own happiness.
I cannot possible write everything about April 30. But i can share that April 30 is part of Vietnam history for it has forever change the course of millions of lives. The only thing that we as Vietnamese people can do is look forward and try everything that we can give the people of Vietnam a life they are deserved.
Today, for me is a special day. I didn't even realize it after posting my blog that today is April 30, 2006. You may ask why today is special to me? I shouldn't say it is special to me only but it special day for all Vietnamese people. Oh what Vietnamese can forget about April 30,1975. While few by nearly all Vietnamese oversea as a the darkest day in Vietnamese history, other view as victorious.
This is day will forever mark a stripe in every Vietnamese lives, love it, hate it, ignore or aware of it, on April 30. 1975 Vietnam fell into a communist regime and caused the biggest exodus across sea by any one country. This exodus or known as "VUOT BIEN" is why I am here today and why 83 millions at still in Vietnam.
Today, hundreds of Vietnamese communties across the world is commemorate this day as millions lives were lost and the country fell into a darkness of communism. While we morn, the Vietnamese government is preparing for a Fouth of July in Vietnam as every corner, every bulding is decked out with lights and the country will put on an elobrate show for everyone to see. Yes, this day, is a big division and seperation of two generations and of family. Although it has nearly been over 30 years, the wounds are still fresh within my families and with many youth activist as myself.
Although I never experience the wrath of the Vietnam world nor would I could have changed anything even if I did, April 30 still brings back for me those many nights when my parents would tell me stories about how lives and families were ripped apart and how today, they did everything that they could to secure us our future. For that, April 30 for me is not about the anger or the pain that was left behind, but more like what can we do today as Youth to secure the future of all of those that are currently living in Vietnam today withour the rights of seek for there own happiness.
I cannot possible write everything about April 30. But i can share that April 30 is part of Vietnam history for it has forever change the course of millions of lives. The only thing that we as Vietnamese people can do is look forward and try everything that we can give the people of Vietnam a life they are deserved.
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